Going on today.

É óbvio pra todos que eu estive hibernando nos últimos meses. Me afastei de tudo e de todos, em busca de respostas. Consegui mais algumas dúvidas.

Acho que levo muito a sério esse negócio de que algumas vezes é melhor guardar a memória do jeito que está, em vez de remexer o passado e decepcionar-se. Antes eu esperava pela resposta da pessoa, hoje torço para que ela se engasgue e vá pro hospital pra eu ganhar algumas semanas. Por isso que quando eu digo que não tenho ninguém, é ninguém mesmo. E é minha culpa, eu me fechei, busquei a minha reclusão. Talvez eu me arrependa. Talvez não. Não gosto muito de pessoas e do jeito como elas pensam. Pelo contrário, fico nervosa e atropelo minha fala, falo besteira.

Eu era tão fácil.

A Fine Frenzy - Bird of The Summer.

You came with the season

As the first swallow sang

A brown headed stranger

With a five-letter name

Doodoodoo doodoo doodoo

We planted our kisses

Where the wild berries grow

My feet sprouted wings

And I flew all the way home

Doodoodoo doodoo doodoo

My cheeks red like fire engines racing

Straight to the heat of your skin

And I know our days are numbered

Early bird of the summer

You'll fly south just as the fall begins

The leaves changed their colors

And the schoolyards were filled

My coat with the patches

Barely keeps out the chill

Doodoo doodoo doodoo

You sent me a postcard

From a town out of state

I wish it were warmer

And I hope you're the same

Doodoo doodoo doodoo

The fields where we wandered were golden

Now only muddy my boots

And I know I should recover

You're a bird of the summer

I was wrong to try and capture you

Flight...

Flight...

And there's someone walkin'

In the park, by the lake

Don't fly a gritter

But it won't fly away

Doodoodoo doodoo doodoo

Gone is the pale hand of winter

Here is the first flush of may

And soon I will discover

Whether birds of the summer

Fly in circles or just fly away

What I've been doing.

- Fell in love with Queer As Folk all over again.

- Spent time just looking up at the sky.

- Sucked some, hm, popsicles.

- Played a lot with make-up and eyeshadows.

- Read Alice In Wonderland.

- Ate a bunch of strawberries (because I'm kind of addicted to it.)

See? I had fun.